People terrify me so much

Ive been agoraphobic for basically my entire life. When I was a kid my mom had to drag me out of the house kicking and screaming. When I moved out I slowly tried to will myself to go out in public and engage with people. It didnt work. I was ignored and spent the entire time when I was out trying to talk to people,failing, then crying in the corner. I tried again to talk to some people at a bar but failed again. People just scare me so much. I shake and cry when I get home. Now Im back to locking my doors and staying inside. I cant say I hate this phobia. I feel safe in my home. I have a routine. I watch the world from my window. Im so sorry I just needed to vent. Im scared about this post but I need some kind of human interaction. But Ill delete this if people want me to. Im sorry