I can’t believe my boy is gone

I lost my 5 year old frenchie unexpectedly 11 days ago. I don’t think I will ever be okay ever again. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. The sweetest dog in the entire world. I cry all day every day and think about him every waking moment and dream of him when I sleep. I don’t understand how such a perfect soul can be gone, just like that. I’ve never felt pain like this. I honestly just want my time to come so I can see him again. I keep reading NDE’s and it’s giving me hope that I will. I would give up anything to just hug and kiss him 1 more time. I didn’t even get to say goodbye. My heart is so broken and my house is so empty.