AMAB & questioning… how do you know if you’re trans?

Hi there,reddit

I've been holding on to this for a while now, and I just feel like I need to get it off my chest and hear other people's opinions who've experienced something like this, you know?

I'm AMAB but have been wondering for quite sometime now if perhaps I'm trans—or something. I have no idea, it's just so hard to explain. Not so much like it's something where I knew and was like, nope, but there are just things that just kinda feel. off. There are certain days where I'm just like, I want to wake up and be someone else. Sometimes I'm just like, no idea, I'm just pretending to be this other person. And then I'm like, am I just over-analyzing everything, or is it just the anxiety or the need to escape or whatever.

I've been reading stories, watching video testimony, reading trans subreddits, and much of what they say makes sense. Still, at this point, I'm unsure. How exactly can people truly know they're trans, and what is "knowing" even supposed to mean? Is it normal to oscillate back and forth like this?

If you're someone who has ever questioned their gender or had anything similar, I would genuinely want to hear what it was like for you. This is my first post anywhere, since I'm not out to anyone in my normal life.

I'm grateful you took the time to read this.