How Did You Guys Start Your Journey?

Hello! I was curious on how some of you started your sexual awakening! I am considering experimenting but don’t want to do something I regret. Let me explain my situation.

I am a 21M straight male. Everytime I’m in a relationship or a FWB I always take the role of a masculine dom. I have done this so much and has been pretty much the only thing I constantly do, to the point where it’s making me envy submission and being feminine.

I have started anal play on myself and love it. I’ve started going doggy style just to be cute, and I’ve been wearing a pair of panties that a FWB has left at me house. On top of that, one of my FWB has agreed to peg me, but we are long distance and only meet twice a year.

Ever since I’ve known I’m getting pegged though, I’ve been fantasizing about it. I’m fantasizing about being full on feminine though and super submissive.

I’ve been thinking though, I can’t wait. I am very interested in going to a Gay Bar. I don’t necessarily find male faces attractive, but I have found masculinity, and the penis attractive. Like I can imagine myself on all fours, giving oral sex to a man.

I’m not sure though, this is my first time these urges about men have came into my head. The thoughts about pegging and wearing lingerie has been in my head for years now. Idk what to do, I just don’t want to do something I’ll regret. Suggestions?