Partner of a few years(?) wanting to call

We’ve been ooc online friends for a while now. Always being there each other even if it’s just small talks and being understanding but recently my partner had asked if i was up for having a call.

I’m not sure about everyone else here but RP is an escape from reality for me where I don’t even use my real name. And as someone that has went through losing good RP partners before because of wanting to see the other, it’s just an ick for me at this point.

Let me also surface that when your true identity is a secret, it’s like wearing rose coloured glasses and its that sweet honeymoon phase. When those glasses are off, its hard to go back to that sweet ignorant phase.

So while one may be respectful of my wishes in regards to privacy, it just causes an awkward drift for me with my partners. I’d love to chat and actually be online friends with someone but i’d like my real life to be private.

And if i were to put it roughly and brutally honest, if i wanted to call, i could have just found a sexting or sexcall buddy. A whole ass partner even.