I fell in love with my best friend

When I was 20 years old I had a best friend younger than me by two years, she was 18 years old. She and I had a very daring friendship with overconfidence, we did many things together that were partly very intimate and private, we loved each other beyond the normal, until there came a point where we got on each other's nerves and became more horny in a public place, there were neighbors who saw us being intimate and there was something else more private, we touched each other, we kissed and in part we left a few marks however what we did was wrong because she had a boyfriend and by the way, he was my best friend, it was enough that one day came when I was not only looking for something intimate but also something more loving, the desire was so much that in part my feelings came to the surface and I showed my jealousy, how that was not reciprocated and mostly we only used each other to satisfy our desires, there came a day when I exploded and I couldn't hold on any longer, I directly showed what I felt and that created a big problem, I almost ended up with everyone around me and I ended up with myself, then I tried to change everything and control what I felt so I took a time neither long nor short, after all that chaos everything calmed down more and we stopped doing all that for a while until the desire to satisfy the sexual needs that we carried returned again.