I don't care about myself.

Hi all, i wanted to share something in hopes that someone would help me

I recently realized that I do not care about myself, i dont care about my wellbeing. I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday, and I'm only thinking to heal from it so that I can have another relationship, not for my own wellbeing.

I never cared about myself, to be honest. I used to eat unhealthy, I struggle with mental health and I don't even take my meds, the only thing I do is read my Bible.

How can I start to love myself and actually care about myself? How can I heal without making it about someone else but instead put the light on myself?