Rant. Read if you want.

So this post is just to rant and see if anyone can give some advice. 3 years ago I met this girl. The most beautiful person I have ever met in my entire life. We started out as friends texting every few days. Nothing too serious I didn’t know she was a she. But than we started texting talking more often. Eventually everyday. We start venting, we have the talk, and we get together.

And I’ve never felt the best/worst in my entire life. We had a amazing connection. I’ve never felt more connected to anyone in my entire life. I’ve never been more in love with anyone ever, and I still think about her everyday. I don’t know why. I’ve been hurt before I’ve been in relationships since than and it’s not like this with them. I have so much love for someone who hurt me and left me. And I can’t move on, I can’t stop thinking about her. 2 years after the break she was on my mind, everyday. Couldn’t stop thinking about her. And it’s gotten better now but a few days a week I think about her and what she’s doing. And I want nothing more than to talk to her. I know I can’t and I don’t even have the ability but I want to. And I don’t know how to deal with these feelings. I’ve take. time, I’ve tried to move on but I can’t. It’s like she died. She didn’t but to me and my heart yea she’s dead. The person I knew 3 years ago likely isn’t the same person today.

And I know all the cliches. Trust me i’ve tried most and give the advice all the time. But if I followed my own advice my life wouldn’t be as fucked as it is. Anyways someone give me some good advice. Fatherly advice. I have a shitty father figure.