Crippling loneliness and depression. I can't do this anymore.

I don't know what human connection is like. I'll always be a pathetic piece of shit that doesn't know how to be around other people. Worst of all, I'm not willing to put in any effort to get better and I know it's my fault I'm like this. I'm gonna drop out and become homeless and then hopefully I can kms and no one will stop me.