To you

Your past didnt matter to me at all. Like I said from the start. Thats your life. Im not part of it. Im just living in it. Like Ive asked you the last time we talked I wanted to know what you actually wanted and what you were plans were. So Id step back knowing the boundaries I dont over step.

I think alot. Okay? You know that. If explained, I’d process it. Know where my limits stands. But here? This charades. Is an imaginary boundary. Im not mad at you at all. Im just kind off disappointed. I’ve let you in my world with no masks. If you actually sat down and listened. Heard me. If you really did. I wanted to be honest coming from MY heart.

But constantly being interrupted telling me I dont understand. I wont understand. If you can say that? Then what makes you think that I cant? You’ve got no reason to hide anything. I myself have too. Ive met so much people hence my personality. I dont hate you. I forgive you still for what I had to go thro being here just to talk to you. Ive actually felt someone really did see me and heard me. But being here? Just made me think. Was that a mask I felt and been with this whole time?

You know Id prefer to talk it out. We’ve done that alot. We’ve worked on it. We both acknowledged the work we did. Im more than tired and drained. You knew that. But using me with what I have left when Ive got physically nothing to offer. Yet I still took my time to understand. You think gossip works on me? Id rather be told personally, cos I trust you than any wannabe.

The real question is. Did you really mean everything? Cos if you did. I didnt initiate this bullcrap. I only followed what u asked for. You reach out. You lead me here. I only reciprocated.