Officially hit rock bottom

I can't believe i am writing this on reddit but I didn't think June '25 would show me what rock bottom actually means. I feel pathetic. The guy who claimed he loved me more than anything cheated on me with his ex (saw it on his phone yesterday). I have to accept a job just because I have no other offers. I am broke af cause I haven't been getting paid since the past 8 months (not unemployed). Today when I was paying for rapido, that half a sec of panic that the payment might not go through cause i don't have enough in my account, put me right where I belong. So I have officially hit rock bottom and I don't know where to go from here. I don't know what am I looking for by sharing this but writing this right now makes it feel real.