There’s just no reason to go on

The feeling of self hatred that I have just doesn’t go away and I don’t think it ever will. I can try to suppress it for a couple days but it always comes back in some way. I either hate my looks, or the way I interact with people, or the fact I am insanely clueless or useless, almost always it’s a different thing but the point is I fucking hate myself. I don’t want to exist in this body, as this person. It brings me so much fucking pain.