I swear everyone hates me

It has been ringing in my head for quite some weeks. It feels like everyone hates. People at work talk sweet but probably bitch behind my back atm,I have heard it myself. Sometimes they don't even hide it. Being the youngest person at work, the warmth that I've had expected is no where to be find. There is this intern who used about my age, and I can swear that she doesn't like me. She presents this fake self, she engages with everyone, is nice to everyone, goes out with me occasionally but I can't shake this feeling that she doesn't like . Recently we also had a lilaargument where she was being very rude but we haven't discussed it. I don't even want to. My family definitely doesn't like me. They are not nice to me. Crazy, fat,lazy ,ive been called every name that you can find in the book. Nobody gives a fuck if I am depressed,crying,sobbing or sick.I am supposed to just suck it up. I can go on and on about them. My friends haha. Friends. Who? Friends? This friend I was talking to was venting about her heartbreak and sob stories as usual and then it suddenly hit me that all these years that we've talked, she probably doesn't know a single thing about me. Not a single thing and me? I can sketch out her entire life. other friends are always either missing me but too busy to plan anything or simply ghost me after some time. I am so sick and tired of people. Not one person is nice to me unless I am giving myself my time, money or other resources without any reciprocation and even then . I don't have anyone to emotionally rely on and it sucks. I do most of the things alone. I enjoy being alone but I hate how I am treated by other people. I have tried making friends, going out but all in vain. I don't like it that nobody is truly there for me or even remotely likes me. Thanks for reading all that mwah.