What are your favorite Self Love & Anti anxiety rituals?

My brother is getting married in just over 2 weeks, and I couldn't be more proud of him. BUT, the location he chose for the ceremony is extremely hard for me. He met his soon-to-be wife at our old Christian private school. It was super small (less than 100 when I joined, about 150 when I left), and, while the education was great, most of the Christian elements weren't. It was really hard being the only outwardly Neurodivergent, disabled, and closeted trans/gay person there. They demonized those parts of me and forced me to practically just become a robot. (Tw for suicide) >! The last time I was there, was just after my failed suicide attempt when I was 13. I felt like it would be better to die, than to spend another day there. !< its been 7 years since I left, and I still have regular nightmares about that place. The closer we get, the more excited and terrified I am. I honestly don't know how I'm going to make it without having a panic attack.

So, here's where you come in. starting today, I want to make every spell, do every ritual, listen to every music, and do every witchy thing I can to take my mind off of the past. i want to focus on self love, Bravery, and eliminating anxiety. Give me EVERYTHING you got. I don't care if it's as dumb as "spin around while holding a chicken egg above your head". infact, I embrace the chaos! If magic won't solve my problems, stupidity always will