I am one of those people

With a bookshelf full of white old men. I post my pretentious shitty poetry in hopes of finding online validation. My day is spend scrolling through reddit. I jerk off to hentai. Supposedly, I'm studying a STEM degree, which makes me feel very smug - except I've failed all my first year units and I'm using A.I as a crutch to get through all my subjects now. I have no friends, and I've never been in a relationship before (20 years old). Such is my level of desperation that I've spent hours on end talking to A.I before. Living with my parents, I don't have a job and rely on them for meals and train money. I pride myself in reading philosophy, except funny thing is, I don't read much at all, and I often give up on books 20 pages in. I've went down the incel pipeline before, and I'm not sure I've fully recovered from it. Honors student in highschool, textbook case of one of those 'former gifted' types that whine on reddit. I'm no better than them. Oh, and to top it off, I exclusively listen to atmospheric black metal albums I find off RYM and nothing else.

Feel free to ask me anything or just direct your frustrations towards me. Consider me your effigy.