letting go of my soulmate, really want to hear others stories so i dont feel alone

I met him a year ago, I have only dated women my whole life but before meeting him i kept feeling a pull to explore it was so so strange but I did, eventually it led me to him. The moment I met him I felt it. I have a few friends n even family members I know in my heart are soulmates, n i had a very strong relationship before but this is just something otherworldly. He really wanted a relationship, but I dont think he was ready for this type of connection.

We spoke a month ago, but haven’t seen him in 6. Its been so painful. No matter what he feels hes not enough n then he just isnt bold enough to ask me to wait. I wish I could stand by his side. Regardless, things have changed for me.

2 friends shared they have feelings for me, I feel something too but nothing close to what i feel for him. I cry every night bc they each are offering me something long term n healthy, but i cant shake this feeling… I feel like I will always long for him. I really want someone to be here for me, I dont mean codependent at all i take care of myself but i do want a relationship a life with someone n dont want to take for granted anyone whos opening their heart to me.

I feel like a life with either of these women would be a happy one full of love, but I know I will always live with such emptiness. I feel like he was my love, not just in one other lifetime but all of them prior.