Childhood buddy got AIR top 40 in adv and here I am taking a drop

Aajka newspaper khola toh front page pe chaitanya ke ad par uska naam aur pic chapa tha.
And I barely passed 12th and didn't even qualify for adv.

Kamal hai bc, hum dono best friend the class 5 mein, sare same interests, hobbies etc. Dono olympiads dete the aur level 2 ace marte the, saare class tests top, ngse jaise exam dete, ab bhi yaad mere bday pe pda tha ek , dono gaye the aur sirf usi ko yaad tha, toh usne badi si chocolate aur barcelona fc ki cup aur purse di centre par, jo abhi tak hai mere paas.

We were head to head, but mera downfall hone laga after i started having the mindset of 'what's the point of all this? what's the point of being the best, it's so much cooler to just hang out, play games and have fun'.

I stopped qualifying for level 2, class tests somehow manage kar liya fir bhi, but lockdown mein toh freefall ho gya. By the end of it situation was so bad had to join home tuition in my society before starting 10th offline. Fir school mein i stopped topping class tests, but school itne tests karwaya ki boards mein somehow 95% + aa gaya. And then i joined fiitjee and got in a hostel for 2 years.If only i hadn't.

Fir bharke anime aur video games khela. 12th realize kiya barbadi ho jayega, so started studying a bit, but saale fitjee ke teachers sab chutti maarte rhe and kisiko bhi bhej dete the substitute ke liye. Around Aug last year bahut ganda bimar par gaya, and had to leave fiitjee, but itna backlogs the overwhelm hoke firse free fall hone laga.

And now here i am.
It's not like mere bas ki baat nhi hai, jaise kabhi log aise bando ko bolte hain, bc padhai hi kahan kiya maine. Fir kabhi lagta hai, kya jo pehle top karta tha, woh bakwaas tha? self doubt toh hoga hi, but bahar mein jaye sab.

Drop liya hai, kabhi socha nhi tha, parents ke paas hun ab, device sab phek diya room ke bahar, ab book approach hi rakhunga, distractions ka risk dobara nhi lunga.Fir bhi soch ke lagta hai, kitna bhi padh lun, adv mein agle saal kuch karne ka koi chance bhi hai? Mujhe kya pata, itne saal ho gaye hai sirf L pe L lete hue. Still give up karne ki himmat nhi aati.

Aur koi hai same boat mein? Tell your story, aur kya kar rhe ho abhi. Koi tips hai woh bhi dedo. Abhi kuch 40-50% concepts clear nhi hai woh kar rha hun.

Tldr:>!padh le bhai warna yahi canon event ho jayega.!<