Tired, Trying, Troubled

I was recently diagnosed with Anorexia. I was aware that i suffered with ana in the past year but i had considered myself as somewhat “better”. Yet; ever since i got this diagnosis i can not stop binging. I’ve gained about 11lbs in the past month. I hate my current look. I really want to heal my relationship with food without being repulsed by my reflection. I’m stuck in this cycle where i can’t restrict myself without binging at night yet i also can’t allow myself to “indulge “ without also binging . My head is always full of food noise.