Relapsing

TW: if you are struggling with relapsing or sensitive to the topic of relapsing please dont read!!!

Hi everyone, I’ve been on this subreddit for a year now. I first got diagnosed with CHS last April…. On 4/20 btw.

After time went on the cravings stopped, the pain of CHS stopped, and my nausea subsided. I truly do feel like I have helped people on here, I’ve gotten over 50 messages just asking for advice on how to keep going.

Before i hit my year mark, I was with a friend who had a weed pen, I thought to myself “fuck it, I’m sure I won’t get sick from the first time.”

And I didn’t get sick from the first time! Which has made me think I can consistently smoke for the past two months again!

As time goes on the symptoms come back. The paranoia, the anxiety, everything that went away when I was sober is now back in my life now. Not to mention my stomach HURTS. All. The. Time. And we don’t even need to talk about the nausea.

I made a decision before I catch another episode, and that is to quit! I quit this evening and gave my mom every weed product I owned. Im so happy and privileged to have an understanding perspective on this subject from my mom.

Now here’s where I need some help. How the hell do I get through these withdrawals without giving in. I’ve done it before but I was basically tied down in a hospital bed having Ativan going through my IV every few hours with no other choice then to quit. Versus this time it’s me, myself, and I.

I’ll continue to update on this subreddit, you guys have truly helped so much and thank you for everything.