I miss my grandma

It has been almost 10 years since she died and I miss her so much I recently found a video of her voice and I never thought it would make me sob I just want to hold onto her and hug her like I did when I was a kid it’s so hard remembering she’s gone and I won’t see her ever again she died so young she was only in her 50’s it’s not fair she died I miss her so much I miss when she called me her princesa how she would play with my hair and how nice she was I hate that I can’t see her every day anymore I hate she had to die confused and died horrible(she had a type of dementia or smth idk it was something that turned her brain into sponge basically) I miss my grandma so much.