Possibly Bi wanted to ask questions

Hey all hope you’re doing well.

I’m laying in bed right now and I’m thinking that the possibility of me being bi is becoming more real. I’m not particularly stressed but I’m a bit curious on where I should place my feelings.

First off, 33, married 8 years to a bi woman. 3 kids. She is my everything but to be honest she makes being bisexual look fun. I’ve always had some level of being attracted to the same sex but I usually find most men disgusting (hygiene/temperament/personality/type) I have good guy friends and I don’t look at them sexually at all. I don’t think I want to come out publicly for a bit, but I would be interested in playing (possibly dating another man) but at this time I would be more interested in trying flirting/kissing/sexing (very slowly).

So I’d like to surprise my wife first at Bonaroo (I know she will be surprised/turned on/excited for me) there’s an LGBT party on one of the nights so I’m going to look for another man to see if they would be open to talking and possibly kissing and see if being bi is for me.

So some things I’m thinking about:

A: am I crazy?

B: I’m a private person, I don’t like sharing intimate things publicly. I don’t know if it’s self hate or what but I don’t know. In my opinion, I like sharing intimate soulful things to people I know/like/trust. I know my siblings would be excited for me, I have friends that would be happy for me but it’s not something I can wear on my sleeve? I guess is this line of thinking a dangerous thought during this period of my journey?

C: is my Bonaroo idea crazy/selfish? Like how would you feel if a:

6” 4’ , bleached hair, slim athletic build approached you, basically tell you what I told you in this post and asked to kiss. Is that too forward? Obviously depends on the person but I don’t know how to approach a bi man (I was too scared to approach women also if that means anything lol)

I don’t know, everyone’s journey is different but do y’all have any advice? Anything about this part of bi-curiousity that you wish you did?