I haven’t been happy in a long time.

I just feel like every day is the same. Wake up, go to work, come home, sleep, repeat. Wife and I don’t go on trips, don’t go out. I’ve been a loner all my life, not really social so haven’t kept in touch with any friends, really regret that because now I don’t have close friends. I see them go on vacations and go out, loving life and I’m just doing the same thing everyday. I’m depressed and sad really, I could just plan trips and all that but I really just have no motivation. People I know are starting to get married and I hold out hope they’ll invite me but I don’t think it’ll happen. If I could do it all again, I’d hope I could live a happier life and just be happier in general. I just feel stuck in a never ending sad life. I also hate that I get so comfortable at work, I can’t seem to find the motivation to move up and learn new things. I want to but I can’t get myself going to improve my position.