German mom - Not much experience but very loose

Hello there.

For me its kind of a slutty thing. I had my first boyfriend when I was 15. Everything was pretty vanilla but i got pregnant. When I was 17. He left right away. And my son turned out to be disabled. When I was about 20 I had my second boyfriend who introduced me to toys, and stretching. I got addicted to thst and continued. Im now 30 and still play, collect huge dildos and toys in general. I got pregant by my 3. Boyfriend over a year ago and now have a 1yo daughter. He left too.. but she is fine. So why is this slutty? Im a mom with 2 kids from from 2 dad's.. with super loose holes but nearly no sexual experience, because that's the only kink I have tried yet.

If you have questions feel free to ask.