I just can't handle not everyone is romantically attracted to me

I grew up being the centre of attention even tho I was barely attractive. Many guys and girls find me irresistable and get obsessed and infatuated with me. Despite having autism, I still managed to get people to have a crush on me.

However, some people , majority of everyone, are just not romantically attracted to me, or they love their lovers and partners more than me. I feel rejected knowing not everyone romantically likes me.

I can also be quite spiritual and believe there are more deeper truths in realm of our source/God then the world and materialism.

However, I can't help but greed over needing the world to be infatuated with me.