burnout

I‘m burnt out and stuck, nothing seems to work, I‘m trying to change my situation really hard but I keep getting into obstacles. I cry almost every day and have frequent meltdowns even with my noise canceling headphones. everything is too much somehow. sport is the only thing keeping me sane and if I had more money I would go to classes everyday. I just want to finally feel some success or improvement and not like a complete failure.

I hate being this way and that everything bothers me and then people comment on it which bothers me even more. I want to be alone and just do nothing but I can‘t.

I‘m trying to do affirmations and convince myself that its okay to suck and progress happens, but I dont actually believe it. I already wasted so much time failing why am I still on square one?