Fking stress and disappointment with myself

im in yr 1 , common engineering, bfr sch start i thought that i will do well in engineering , but IM NOT. NOT AT ALL. Im strugglingggg copingggg can’t cope, feel so fed up with myself, hate the modules, no motivation to study cuz i rlly have no interest in it, i only can study math … The fking IEP AUTOCAD DE … knn eh im gonna fail mst .. legit gonna fail cuz i dun fking understand anything.. Im so disappointed with myself lahh

I want to study, do well and get a good gpa, get a good life but… reality is that i rlly hate what im studying rn, hate my class, i also dun feel a sense of belonging in SP… eveyday js dragging myself to school and not enjoying anything here… life rlly feels like shit rn..

I wan study siaa, but rn it’s like damm rabak. i dun know whr and how to even start.. I need to pass uk .. hais..