Methods

I don’t think I’m gonna do it in the near future, but for a long time I’ve been trying to determine a method that will inflict the least amount of emotional pain possible on my parents and sister. I don’t want them to find me mangled in a car accident, or with half my face blown off by a shotgun, or vaporized on impact from a 50-story jump. I also want them to know that this wasn’t their fault and that I loved them all deeply even if I didn’t always show it. But no matter what, they will blame themselves and I cannot bear the idea of them living with guilt they don’t even deserve. I can’t do it for now for their sakes, even if the method I choose keeps my body intact enough for an open-casket funeral.