Has anyone else had treatment and realized how much they hate their life?

I spent my entire teenage years and all of my adulthood until this year with narcolepsy. Life was hard, but I could never see a way out of how it was. Now I see what I’m capable of, that I could function alone, and I keep thinking I’ve trapped myself in a life I hate now that I’ve woken up. I resent my pets, my partner, I feel like a terrible person for wanting more. I’m trying not to implode my life, but the weight of this want is getting heavier. I also have no one to confide in which doesn’t help matters.