how do you know your theripist is nice and not menan

im waiting to go home but i cant stop thinking about it all and the more i think the more it just feels like i cant trust anyone anymore especially my therapist i thought she was supposed to help me but now i just feel like she wants to hurt me or something its so obvious shes just waiting for me to mess up or break down so she can just throw me away or something i know it sounds dumb but i swear shes been trying to make me worse i dont know maybe its just me but every time i talk to her it feels like shes just pretending to care but really shes just watching me to see if i snap or if i fall apart and im not even sure she likes me i feel like she hates me or maybe im just some experiment or something i dont know its hard to explain i wish i could trust her but i feel like i cant with everything feeling so wrong right now