Disillusionment working at a nonprofit

I work at a policy nonprofit and have increasingly found myself disillusioned, frustrated, and feeling complicit in the current admin’s unconstitutional and norm-breaking behavior.

We essentially don’t have any red lines on Trump admin stances we’ll disagree with. Kind of like a lily in the wind, we’ve been pretty flexible and go with the flow: silent on major controversial issues or publishing an opinion that is (very) innocuous after much haranguing from other departments before it goes up.

Not to mention the insane levels of institutional disorganization. I am bottom rung admin at this org but still feel like if I’m not driving the bus on major projects, no one is. I do not get paid enough to have my face shoved in all of the managerial incompetence I have to deal with every single day.

I am actively searching for jobs in other fields because it seems that these are industry-wide problems. Even though I plan to work on local volunteering and mutual aid alongside my next corporate job (which tbh will have way more of an impact than our bs white papers) it also feels like I’m giving up this vision I had for my career of helping other people.

I’m writing to see if there are others who work at policy orgs who feel the same way (or other zoomers having a similar quarter life crisis).

Am I crazy?