Things i feel

Honestly, I’m not really sure… I used to feel like I belonged when I did it. It wasn’t just self harmin, it was so much more than just seeing blood. I just don’t know how to say it out loud..

Belonging, happiness, purpose, meaning, feeling real, calm, fewer mental breakdowns, less depression, a reason to keep going, passion, stability, a sense of being alive, self-worth, attention, revenge, pity, the free to cry, comfort, escape, love, emotional and mental relief, relieving pressure, distraction,, emotional release...

That’s what I felt when I ran a razor or fire over my skin It might sound crazy, but it felt like another world I could live in, a different reality The only thing that made me feel like myself. Like a way to fight the emptiness and pull it out of my soul..