Day 17- My thoughts

Some things are getting better- not constantly anxious, the grass is looking greener (literally) but finding myself more depressed. I used for 6 years almost non stop. I know it’s gotta rewire and I have to get used to feeling the full force of being a human. But godamn, i don’t know how long i can hold on without any form of aid. My therapist says just give it time, but when you wake up and immediately want to stop existing, then get bombarded with intrusive thoughts through the day, it’s kinda hard.

Plus I’ve had a headache for 5 days that won’t leave. Anyone else had these lingering symptoms?