Am I Trans? Or just a feminine man who coincidentally wants to become a woman?

In short: Am I Trans? Or just a feminine "soft" man who completely separately wishes he could change into a woman?

Really I'm just looking for advice, and where better to ask than here.

But for the past 4-5 years, me and several friend groups have been making jokes about me being trans. But what started as absurdist (admittedly transphobic jokes) based on viewings of how the different genders were treated, slowly (secretly) became more and more true. As I started Identifying more with (at least what the wolrd views as) feminine traits, and wishing I would wake up as a woman. (Also worth mentioning I hid an Easter egg on my social media. Which while no-one has found in 3 years. I always know it's there.. growing in meaning)

Such as, I've clearly always had a feminine personality. Not as in being "camp" or "girly", but in terms of gentle/kindness, oo the point people/partners have brought it up to me in good ways. Also being empathic/emotional. Now ofcourse some men can also be those but it's not common. Also in terms of thought process. Whenever I see memes about comparing men v women in derain situations, I almost always am more like the woman option.

And then in terms of the "wishing to wake up one day as a woman" aspect. What started out as clearly jealousy, from also wanting to receive compliments/ have people care if I'm okay etc etc. Slowly morphed into wanted a female form, so I could express myself more visual (clothes, nails, earrings, hair etc). Which has now morphed even further, to the point now I feel empty inside whenever I remember ill never have certain experiences, like pregnancy, periods Etc (I know they aren't something to WANT, but I just can't explain it) I have also wanted a child since I was a preteen, which ofcourse is also weird for a man, hence all the jokes and pdf jokes. (Always wanted a girl aswell, which could be seen as my subconscious trying to tell me something)

Sexuality also plays a factor in it aswell. As I know sexuality and gender are two separate things completely. But it needs to be said, that I am a straight man. So if I ever do accept that I'm trans.. then that makes me a "Man.. who on the inside is a woman who likes women". Which is literally the "straight with extra steps" meme. So I can imagine the people thinking I'm doing it to just be different or even trans people taking offence thinking I'm mocking them.

And I hope the answer isn't just "only I can know" because if I'm honest, I clearly have the type of autism that makes me only think rationally. And rationally speaking..both biology and context (nature AND nurture) say I'm a man. But then that's why I'm here asking you.

As you can imagine there's dozens more things I could list off, which add to this confusion. But to keep it as brief as possible, this is it.

Any help is appreciated. (Sorry if this is a dumb post)