There's an invitation to a party from our co-worker after a meeting. I don't plan to go there because I'm used to it that nobody really would go with me to be there. And then a co-worker mentioned that they went to the party together with the people in the meeting, mentioning their names one by one and said, "Oh we should have brought you too." Of course, I just smiled and said I was busy.

There's a trip for work for a team, it's a group project and I'm included in that team. Of course I was a little worried if I'll be included in the office transportation too or I'll be transporting by myself. Then one of my supervisors there called a meeting about it and asked if there's a designated transportation for the team because that's really about a group project. One of the supervisors mentioned that they already asked one of the person in the group to bring their vehicle and name the people that will be accommodated in that. So I thought, yeah right, it such a hassle to travel alone like we don't know each other. Then that first supervisor that called the meeting then said, "If that's the case then I'll bring her with us.". And I've felt like I'm seen and was treated as a person at that moment. I am very thankful that he remembers me and included me. Like I don't care if I'll be traveling with 2 men when I could be included with group of women. They treat me better.

There's also an issue about accomodation and that first supervisor mentioned that if a room was intended for a 3 person, the head should not insist putting 4 person in that because that 4th person will not be included in the hotel meals. While he was talking about that I even thought I can sleep in the couch, like I'm so used to it since I'm the youngest in the company. But when he cared about that person that won't be included in the meals, I feel like he treat them more as a person than these other supervisors I have. 

It's not really like I can't afford it myself, I just wanted to be treated like a person. And I thought myself, it's not what position or title a person has, it's how he treat other people that really matters.

I cried feeling bad about it and throw up my food. I'm feeling depressed rn. 

When I'm unenergetic and sleepy, I know I am feeling depressed.