what should I do? can I live 2 lifes?

I wanna be a male pornstar (12 inches) and I also want to be a model/actor and a pilot. My career choice is to be a pilot.

I've always wanted to fly and explore other places and model. But I've been interested in being a gay porn actor.

Can I be both, I mean live 2 lives? Would it really affect me that much?