i need help regulating stuff (nsfw mentions)

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I’m 13. every time i’m hrny i feel a very strong urge to let (especially older) people groom me. people on reddit that i blocked cuz of their creepy messages, i have a strong urge to unblock and ask for it, and in some cases, i have. i never send pics or videos or do calls or stuff like that but every creepy message they send just affects me more and more and i send some sort of feedback on how good their message made me feel.

when my mind clears, i instantly reblock them and feel disgusting because not only did i just let them do that, i literally have a boyfriend. i feel so disgusting, i’m a whore, dude. im cheating on him with actual adults on the internet. how do i stop myself from doing ts, i can’t do this anymore, i’m so disgusting, he doesn’t deserve this at all😓