Do you enjoy a hurtful dildo or a more forgiving one?

I just bought this dildo that is very girth and every stroke hurts my ass and makes me moan and cross my eyes and drool like a brainless slut and afterwards my asshole is loose and swollen and I just love the feeling of being ran through by that big dildo. Do you girls also enjoy being hurt by your dildos or do you go for a more chill experience