Am I such a bitch for asking this?

Sometimes, like when I'm being fucked, I feel the need for all the cum to end up inside me, so I remove the condom from my clients or friends who are fucking me and I ask them to please cum as deep inside me as possible 💁🏼‍♀️💦. Only when I feel those big loads of cum sailing through my vaginal cavities is when I feel really alive and ecstatic🫠, do you think I'm such a slut for asking that of men?