The grief is getting worse it seems

I’m not good at being a widow. It’s such bullshit. I’m crying at every mental and tangible trigger. I hate being in the house without my husband. My daughter goes off to college in Utah in August and I’ll be all alone. We have to go through probate since my husband didn’t have a will. Our marriage was far from perfect but I just can’t deal with him being gone. I got an impersonal text from the cremation company that his remains and death certificates were ready. So impersonal. That sent me over the edge at work. Such a f-ing nightmare. Will it get better????