I feel like I’m too sexy and can’t handle the attention

I’m crying rn lol

I was a really chubby kid and I never got a lot of attention. As soon as I started to hit puberty I started getting really curvy and I felt like I was alway getting more attention than I know how to handle. I remember family members telling me I looked sexy when I was like 12 or 13 years old.

Now that I’m 20, I feel like it’s a stupid problem to complain about, I often feel like a bimbo if I try to talk about how my big boobs cause me anxiety.

I feel slutty, I don’t feel pretty. I get a lot of male attention and I feel like they’re never interested in anything but my body. I feel like a disappointment because I’m not as fun as they want me to be.

I feel like my body was the reason I got raped. I feel like it’s the reason I keep getting assaulted. Men often tell me I should be grateful for my body, that I’m attractive and I turn them on. I feel like a walking target. It feels like my body causes me so much harassment.

I hate that I feel pornographic everytime I take a selfie or see myself in a photo. I want to be confident. I hate that family members will have conversations behind my back about seeing too much cleavage or questioning if I’m and onlyfans girl.

I wish I liked my body as much as everyone else does but right now i’m just ashamed and embarrassed.