I'm so tired of this feeling na "what matters is I tried"

Ang bigat bigat lang, kasi kahit alam kong whenever I do things, palaging buong puso, pero at the end of the day, people still make me feel na I'm still not enough despite doing my best.

Im well aware of the things we can control, and the things we cannot. Sa context ko, wala na ko control on what people will feel about me, and I should focus more on what I can control. The thing is I just can't help but to feel hurt about it, kasi nafefeel ko na I'm not enough sa mga taong I dedicate my work to, and sa mga araw na to I can't help but to question my worth. My best are just bare minimum to them, and ang sakit marinig and mafeel non. Pero can I blame them? No. Ayon yung mga bagay na di ko na macocontrol eh. I get it. I always try to put yung sarili ko sa position nila, but sa end ko masakit parin. I just want to feel seen and appreciated, and it sucks lang na sa mga taong important and mahal mo naeexperience yon, these are the people na you'd die for, and yet they'd make you feel na may kulang sayo.

Aware ako sa mga answers ng problems ko, I'm just hurt lang talaga, and tired of this feeling. Like sana maging genuinely enough ako sa mga mata nila.