How do I face him today?

We had a big fight on Thursday where I told him that we should not see each other and are better off away.

When we started hanging out he liked me too much, but then something happened and he withdrew. This triggered my anxiety and instead of giving him space, i became a clingy vulnerable person which drove him further away. We did get back but that love was replaced by pure lust and it bothered me.

When i forced boundaries, things got so much better but then there was something that happened in my life. Instead of telling him straight, I told him that I will tell the whole story once I accomplish because i didn’t want to jinx it. The next day he said he couldn’t care less, he was joking around, and I felt dismissed. When I brought it up, he said I was annoying him and hadn’t actually told him anything. He said he didn’t care, but he’d turned off read receipts — clearly, he cared, but pushed me away, like always.

I told him that. That he keeps pushing people away, and I’m tired of it. That is when I broke this off. He was in all i don’t care zone, and i went there as a i care so much about you person, and exposed my vulnerability.

I don’t know how should I behave today? As if he doesn’t exist? Or should i be all normal?