Help I’m hooked on benzos

Last week i found a packet of diazepam in my dads medical drawer. There were two packets of 16 5 mg tablets. I suffer from social anxiety and read that they relieve anxiety. So i took one It relieved of my anxiety which felt great and also gave me this relaxed feeling, the next day i was feeling quite depressed so i decided to take 3. And it felt great, felt extremely relaxed and sleepy, my coordination was shit tho, i couldn’t walk straight. And after about an hour i feel asleep. And it was some of the best sleep I’ve had in a while. Two days after i craved some more. And i tried to resist but couldn’t i ended up taking 30 mg diazepam. And it was great, I listened to some music at first and it felt very relaxing and sedating, could barely keep my eyes open, and could barely walk, my mom noticed something was wrong but i shrugged her off, my talking was slurred. Then after that is a bit if a blur, for some reason i drank some wine from my refrigerator (don’t drink alcohol that often). And after that i went outside and jumped in my pool fully clothed for some reason. Then went back in took my clothes off and fell asleep soaked on my sofa. A couple hours later my dad found me and woke me up. And told me to go to my bedroom, apparently i tripped multiple times while climbing up the stairs. And was speaking random shit. I dont remember any of that but thats what my dad told me. He suspected i took something. But i managed to change his mind and convince him it was my lack of sleep. Now its been 3 days and i feel sick and crave more diazepam can anyone help and give me some advice.