Ex drama

Okay so i broke up with my ex, then uhm recently i started viewing his profile a LOTT. And snapping him a lot and he did the same back. Then like i apologized to him about being selfish and avoidant. And he said “ill text u tmr” and the next day at school he was like going down the halls i go down a lot, and around the end of the day he helped me move smth when he usually avoids me?? And he snapped back a lot. But when he helped me i ran away right after we placed it. And i saw him in the halls and went the opposite direction cuz i got nervous, And later i asked “hey what’d you wanna talk about” and he left me on read so i sort of ended up ******* up like idk i felt like maybe he didnt like me bc he saw me and thought i was too ugly to speak to again or smth. I unfollowed him on snap, insta, and TikTok but kept him as a friend on roblox and didnt block his number but i feel like my brains all over the place rn bc what? Idk should i text him saying sorry?? I miss him, im attached to him a lot still, i regret breaking up a lot and he did reciprocate when i showed interest but what if he was tryna clown me? Or smth idk im just all over the place and have been and yeah idk a bunch of other stuff happened today like a physical fight and someone told me nobody would care if i went missing, like what if that was him on an alt acc bc he was mad at me? isk my head hurts a lot should i text him about why? I dont wanna leave i want him in my life but i acted on impulse wtf (we’re both 16 for reference pf age or smth idk)