Cremated ‘Stone’

(I will refer to my grandmothers ashes put into a heart shaped stone as ‘the stone’. it helps me to type this without crying.) I’m very in touch, have been my whole life. i.e. prophetic dreams (proven to every one i’ve ever mentioned it to), feeling presences, energy, lucid dreaming, astral projecting, you name it. always been very selective to whom i say this to so i will delete this soon. this has never been something that i have ever bragged about or willingly tell people of mainly bc in my childhood and sometimes to this day it’s been almost against my will bc it scared me to death, especially as a little kid. I’ve grown more or so accustomed to all except 1 thing, besides the point. I have been left with my grandmother’s ashes that have been partially formed into a heart shaped stone. 2 family members have kept this stone in their possession before me and have stories. 1.) i have (multiple) video evidence of a family member catching orbs and other occurrences on their living room camera (where they kept the ash/stone) and other thing that even scared off one of their friends that had zero clue. i was sent them so often it could be considered daily. there were many other things that were caught on camera around this stone that were not caught before/ since the stone has left. as in it never happened before the stone was there and hasn’t happened since it left. then the stone was given to my brother. he doesn’t have cameras but him and his gf said weird things were happening. at the least the lights flickered. (idk if i should have added but my gma practiced). weird things happened for both of them. Cut to now, I have the stone. I have had it for a month now. I feel absolutely nothing. I have taken it with me everywhere I go. My gma was a smoker, i used to be but stopped.. but still i had an old pack in my room so i lit one up and had her outside with me while i smoked. Nothing. Still as i’m typing this i feel, sense, smell nothing. Neither does my partner who can be partially in tune with this as well. It makes me feel some type of way considering i’ve seen and heard the other occurrences. I have other lost ones that I’m aware of when they visit, but not this one. The glass half full part of me wants to think shes free and comes and goes when she pleases. The other side makes me feel…. I don’t even want to say. I’ve never felt this way about anyone. Maybe I’m tripping? I’m not religious, if anyone has any sort of answer or guidance / comfort- let me hear it.