I'm getting lost.

Every day I get dumber; every day I understand less, every day I get more lost in class. I'm slower and slower. I feel heavy and at the same time I feel light, and I feel like at some point the wind will finally drag me away. I'm angry and I'm sad all the time. I feel alone, and at the same time, I don't want to be with anyone, I don't want to talk, I don't want help. I'm never hungry. I eat because I know I should, but God, I can't get out of bed.

I don't know what I feel, but I feel everything.

I'm convincing myself I don't have any friends, and it's weird because I laugh with them every day. I laugh, but when I'm alone, there's a buzzing in my head. I don't understand what's happening to me. Someone told me it was my period. I don't think so.