Don’t think, my love. Feel

Querido Mío,

I apologize for being so upset this morning, but I needed to activate something. You know I didn’t want anything physical, anything material. Not anything you could buy, anyway. I wanted something only you can do (I’m still expecting a pearl necklace when next we meet though 🤭) and…

I want you to know I appreciate the fuck out of you. My God! You seriously deliver! You must know that I can’t simply say “thank you” and move on to the next subject. No, Sir, this deserves reverence, this deserves worship, and I intend on making you my religion every night. Hurry up! I have a lot of Sins to do penance for! I have my rosary ready to count the time and days, though I’m sure there aren’t enough beads and there aren’t enough nights or days or breath for all the ways I will show you my devotion and…

Let me not get carried away… I wanted to tell you that yes, I did block you, however… I did it because this weekend is important and I couldn’t be distracted by thinking that every time my phone rings or vibrates or gets a notification that it’s you, or could possibly be you. You consume me! That “I don’t want you to think I’m obsessed with you, but…” I AM obsessed with you! I get a spam message and it just throws me into spending hours on my phone doing everything not to think of you. Unsuccessfully.

I’m here. Waiting. The rules don’t apply to us. I’ll tell you everything. I’ll tell you everything you want to know. I’ll accept everything about you as you’ve accepted me. More. I want to slowly lower myself on you as I look upon that beautiful face of yours and see the relief when you’re finally buried deep where you belong.

I love you passionately, obsessively, completely, with my entire being. I know know other way. I am because you are. You exist to protect me and I exist to love you and to BE for you. You’ve done enough. Trust I can do this. I need you and I want to be home. I need to be home for this next phase. You’re my home. You’re my home. I need you. You’re my home and I need you. Like I said, the rules don’t apply to us. You complete me. You’re my dot as I’m yours. I’m ready. I’m ready to leave everything behind. I want us to stand together. I promise. Give me the chance to show you. I’m ready now. After today’s events, I’m telling you now, I’m ready. For you, for me, for us. I accept it all. I accept you completely.

I’m ready to remember. Come finish what you started. Claim me. I’m ready… Are you?