Even if I am trans, how am I supposed to pass without being hideous?

Posing the pure hypothetical that I am a trans man or transmasculine non-binary freak or anything aside from cis...

I am 5'3, skinny, and curvy. How the hell am I supposed to pass? On other subs, they'll answer this question with responses like, "Well look at Danny Devito!" Do you think I want to look like that? I am 20 years old and I just want to look like a regular guy my age. Maybe this is a huge red flag for me faketrans but I do not want to be a bodybuilder or have a beer belly or be covered from head to toe in hair, which are sadly the only things I could think of that would actually make me able to pass. I just want to be a guy. If I were born male everything would be fine. Or if I had enough "childhood signs" and trans exposure as a kid with family who'd be willing to get me on puberty blockers and HRT early then maybe I could look like a normal fucking person. I hope to god that I am fake because I don't know how I'm going to live the rest of my life living in this body thinking about what could be. Maybe I am just a crazy cis girl who 'likes men so much she wants to be one,' but only a hot one. Knowing my luck if I were able to magically go back and be born cis I'd probably just be ugly and realize I was wrong and end up being a trans woman. I hope this goes away and that I'm just a stupid loony cis girl co-opting trans people's struggles and projecting my mental illness and trauma and blah blah blah blah blah please help me