Is it weird this feels so abstract?

So I wanted to check with you ladies because I know you went through this phase, but maybe not the same question. Is it just me or in the early time did all this feel abstract to you too? I know I'm on the same (or similar) meds as you all now, but like other than feeling more clarity it almost seems like no big deal doing this. Don't get me wrong I'm excited that I'm finally taking control of all this, but honestly it doesn't even real feel real if you get what I mean.

Idk am I just being like self conscious and weird about it or is this something other people felt too?