I need help. Husband cheated and I am currently pregnant.

I (29F) am currently 28 weeks pregnant and I found out that my husband (33M) has been cheating on me since the end of Feb with an employee.

I did sense something was weird in April but he kept brushing it off and said I am being crazy due to my pregnancy hormones. We also have a toddler that is 16 months old.

We fought more than usual since the end of December because we started a new business and he’s been working 7 days a week and is still currently and I’ve been home watching the baby 7 days a week alone and then morning sickness hit and peaked in February. I feel like we just didn’t respect each other’s job at that time and was just focused on our own struggles. We were also struggling financially because the business wasn’t doing well.

Fast forward to mid May, I had this feeling that I needed to check his phone. He changed the password. He wouldn’t open it for me. The next day he slept with a YouTube video on and I checked and there it was.

At first he said he’ll end things but couple days later, he said he doesn’t want to come back and wants to marry her and take my first born child.

(Please don’t judge) but I, like a loser, begged him to come back to our family and even said that everything was my fault and that I was sorry. I just couldn’t handle the fact that my unborn child wouldn’t have a father in his life or when he would be born.

He still comes home everyday but we don’t really talk about it because he avoids it and tbh the thing that hurts me the most is that he will text her in front of me and my toddler literally every second.

I know I don’t deserve this as a woman, but as a mom, I want to and could do anything for my kids. Also, even if I get a divorce, husband gets cash so I won’t be able to get enough child support. And as a SAHM, I don’t have anything currently. We also don’t have any property.

I have currently accepted the fact that my two choices are to either wait and see if he’ll come back to us or to just give up both kids to him (he said he won’t ask for child support.)

I know I need to and should let him go but I just feel so bad for my kids. I don’t know what to do. I think husband is just waiting until I give birth which is in less than three months. I’m just in so much pain and need advice. I did meet with a lawyer but he suggested we try therapy first (but ofc husband doesn’t want to.)

Tl;dr - currently pregnant and husband cheated and can’t give up on mistress.